grew up a fucking screwup

my life is null and void my soul is black no one can hear me scream and im all alone and lonsely nobody understands me...sometimes i just want to slit my wrist and put my self out of misery
lol hahahhaha hnah its not liek that ...im not emo...people have bin saying that recently because the amount of times i say i dont care about somehting a day...its because i dont .i cannot explain why its to much to type out realyl in my blog i just dont. fullstop not really but i cant explain anything to any idk person who hasnt bin through the shit i have ...which ui never tell anyone anyway ...but its like i dont care anymore ...example people keep telling me not to do shit like have sex and what not and if i ask why theyd jsut say cuz its wrong . but this whole right and wrong thing... u never examined it did u? so im officially a fuckup in summary ...the biggest one of them all cept no drugs and tatoos which i just dont feel like..and i guess wehn my friends start to notice to the extent that i have ...idk changed in hte past month or 2...they gonna just abandon my ass...they just on different tracks from me? and i know exactly whos gonna stay... lately also ive bin homeless...havnt gone to my dads house since...my last cxc exam have just bin totally sleeping about the place...haha not in that way...lately im not as much as a whore as people htink i am i actualyl dont do anything atall they think being careless ...means that i go about with any old broad...bah enough of that typing...lately i just like rock...only thing that exists to me in a strange way i cannot type with no reply or questioning for soem1 to possibly understand i guess if i typed a mile nmo one wud really get it...this is just for simone ...a just btw...i tried