u know in hindsight

u know in hindsight i still feel liek having a blog i just dotn do it lol
so maybe ill write some things
9cant remember how to insert video lol)
the cartoons these days disgust me...me and my nephew were watchign i mean they were always crapy brain washing bullshit but these days its worse by far
its all TEACH YOUR MAN TO BE A LITTLE SOILDIER and TEACH HER TO RAISE A BABY
ad after add this is the added message i get and i notice that my nephew is only into the guy base toy to
its like totally starting the sttereotype thing from young...i mean i didnt know itf it was always so just watchign tv these days i noticed it
it sfutureing the me a chauvanistic basterd motion and the all u can be is a house wife thing also xX lol not defending the crap of lonng time ago but
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IErXg5kBXXg
atleast you can learn somehting fro the old ass mickey mouse i knwo that the ydo it on purpose and i just felt to draw a little notice to it lol the system is thre ...the system is down lol hahahah damn

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lol dred reading ove r my old blog i suddenly realise im feeling this old dusty feeling lol...the feeling to write
im reading over my post and there are quite a few things i noticed about myself...
1.there are alot of crappy poems about like butterflies and what-not on my blog.(ever since i wrote my very own crappy one lol)
2.i really cudnt type
3. how the fck was i so insecure
4.i was confused...badly and i actually said some really gay things
5.i can watch my confidence slowly grow and me stop being emo lol9was never emo just was a pussy)
6.i write real shit to simmy in it ...and i thought she wudnt notice but she probly did Oo
7.girls hated my gutz
8.i hated them lol
9.i n ver hated sim -_- even though the messages i wrote while she wasnt talking to me seem like it they wernt attacks lol just...realisations
10.ironically i got about ten times smarter Oo
(you can understand when bob is angry when we piss his other creations off by idk killing them but hah lol this was funny though)
11.haha lol i really had sleeping disorders i thought i was justr being a hypochrondriac as usual when i said i had insomnia but im reading my dumb posts...dead energy in my chest apparently lol thats what i sued to call it
11.sadly im as evil as the people i once wondered at :-/
12.at about 7 months of writing i actually seem quite cool
13.lol strangly the more insecure i felt the more i excercised lol and the more secure i felt the more i called myself awesome... so weird like a key
14.i have totally changed like ...totally but i like my past self and so did alot of girls lol..i guess
so assumary...life is good i g have grown to busy to write
my confidence aka ego has grown
i have stopped being totally nice infact only about 40 nice
i dont care
and i dont feel left in the dark which was the constant feeling
i used to feel
i moved by my dad meaning i am mature enough to live on my own
the girl i have bin hunting..well likes me more than she used to (boosting my cockyness lol)
idk idk idk lol im not feeling to type as much as i feel calm these days
lol lemme post this and see if anyone wud read it